I’m currently at a crossroad in my life. My youngest will be starting Pre-Kinder next week and so I will be finding myself with some time to myself. I’ve been a stay at home mom for the past ten years. While I’ve kept busy managing the finances of my husband’s architectural business and doing my writing, most of my time has been spent devoted to my family. It will definitely be nice to have a quiet house being that it’s been so loud and busy having all three of my kids home this summer.
I’m sure most SAHM wonder at times if the sacrifice they make daily to stay home is enough. Only we know how much we do and how much we give of ourselves. Staying at home with little ones is selfless. Now that all of my kids will be in school I feel I can finally do something for myself. I’ve begun working on a children’s book, which I hope to publish by the end of this year. I am also considering going back to school, but I’m largely considering starting on my career path. It all seems so unusual to me and the possibilities for my future are endless. A few days ago, I knelt down and talked to Jesus for a while. I needed him to steady my heart. “Lord, you go before me. You direct my path. I submit to your desire. Let me only take steps in the direction that lead me to you.” I’ve started the process of looking for a job. I was a little nervous at first, but I keep reminding myself who goes before me. Whatever door He closes is a part of His plan. Whatever door He opens is a part of His plan.
I recently went to my very first interview and part of me was nervous. My insecurities were getting the best of me. “Am I good enough? Do I really have anything to offer? But I haven’t had an 8 to 5 in over a decade.” I took control of my thoughts, “Who goes before you? Who is paving your path? Just put one foot in front of the other. You are a daughter of the Most High. You are a carrier of Holy Spirit. You can do all things through Christ who gives you strength.” I don’t know yet if the job is mine, but I do know one thing for sure, I did my absolute best. I rocked that interview! I’m sure I left more than just a good impression on the panel of 8 who interviewed me. I have the skills to do the job, but I possess much more than just skills. I am filled with the power of the Holy Ghost and that is something more valuable than any man can offer. You can train people to have the skills required for a job, but to train someone on attitude and behavior is much more difficult.
But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control; against such things, there is no law.
(Galatians 5:22-23 English Standard Version)
I can’t fully see the road ahead of me, but I have a clear view of the one paving it for me. My confidence is found in Him. May you be reminded of who goes before you. You belong to the Creator of the Heavens and the Earth. Do not sell yourself short. Walk straight in the path prepared for you. If you are under the will of God, He will lead you exactly where you need to be. Do not be discouraged. Continue. God goes before you.
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Rosalinda Serna